Eccentric Flower:199903/no more than three
From Eccentric Flower
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eighteen march no more than three I hate screwing up. I hate wasting my time. I am never writing about porn vs. erotica again. I've tried four times. I cannot make anyone understand my point of view, cannot make anyone see why the labels are important. I feel like the man at the end of the original Invasion Of The Body Snatchers, running down the highway, no one willing to listen to or believe his shouting. Never again. I am never again pursuing some web project I find really interesting for three evenings, working hard and then finding out that no one is particularly interested. Can you count the number of CGIs I've taken down for lack of enthusiasm? I'd tell you to go see nibelung.org, but the domain's suddenly not responding (thanks, Shore, you timed that one real nice) and it probably doesn't work if you have that Other Browser anyway. To hell with it. Never again. I will never again try to write erotica. I will never again try to illustrate one of my own story ideas. All of these things are not cases of isolated failure - they are cases where I've tried three or more times, and each time fallen on my face. Call it a character fault, but I am not an "if at first you don't succeed" person. Not much of one, anyway. If I can't get through a level of whatever shooter I'm playing in three tries, I cheat. If I can't get through more than three levels without cheating, I usually stop playing the game. More than three is just frustration. Never again.
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